What I missed in my Last experience
The day Swamiji left Kuwait concluding his February2000
visit, I had forgotten to write the beginning of the amazing day of realisation
of his presence in my house. Previous day’s pooja was over very late and
when I was to return home Swamiji told me that he would leave to the airport
at 7.30 am. I told him that I will come before that time and left. I woke
up in the morning with someone tapped on my thigh. When I looked at the
time it was 7.15am. I was so terribly disturbed thinking how I could reach
Swamiji by 7.30. I quickly had a shower and went to the shrine and said
to the deities you know that Swamiji is leaving at 7.30 already I am late
so let me see him off and then come back and pray. When I went to the car
it was sharp 7.30. Since it was wintertime the car has to warm up before
being driven. I got into the car and prayed to Swamiji as I am coming to
you, and already I am late please move the car immediately and wait till
I come. I started the car and immediately moved, to my surprise there was
no problem. From my house to Mr. Venkatesh’s house is only 7-8 minutes
drive, when I went into the house I asked Mrs. Usha whether Swamiji has
performed the pooja. She replied as from 7.15 onwards they had been trying
to put him up and he was just nodding the head and at 7.30 he opened his
eyes and got up and went in for shower. When I heard this I told her it
is unbelievable and narrated what happened to me. The timing of me getting
up and leaving house to see Swamiji and the timing of him moving was so
perfectly matching. Did he come to put me up that day and waited till I
left the house for him get into shower? What answer could I guess? If not
for Swamiji putting me up, I would have been fastest sleeping on that day.
On 14th
April New Year’s Day Swamiji’s picture came to my house
It was Thursday, we had
bhajan at Mr. Venkatesh’s house. Generally we have the bhajan from 7.30pm
to 9pm. Before coming for the bhajan I had given the picture of Swamiji
for framing. I planned to collect the framed picture after bhajan and take
it to Mr. Venkatesh’s residence for blessing and then to take Swamiji to
my House. That day unusually bhajan was delayed, and finally it was over
by 9.20. I excused myself from Mr. Venkatesh and drove to the framing shop
within 10 minutes. He was pulling the last shutter and when he saw me he
opened the shop and gave me the picture. Halfway through the bhajan and
till I got the picture to my hand, I was deeply requesting our beloved
Swamiji that the shopkeeper should keep the shop open and I must receive
Swamiji in my house that day. I took Swamiji’s picture to Mr. Venkatesh’s
house and got the blessings. After that I came to my house with Swamiji
and kept him in a special place and took the blessing. Swamiji kept me
on pins and finally he gave me the joy of coming with me to the house on
New Year’s Day.
Averting car accident on May 9 2000
I had gone out for my
evening walk and when returned home I was exhausted. It was around 7.30
PM and my friend called me to come and have dinner with him. Even after
telling him about the tiredness he told me he could wait for sometime to
have food with me. Since I could not displease him finally I agreed to
go to him even though it is 42 km from my house. Generally it takes about
25 minutes to reach there. With my body being warm at that time I immediately
took shower finished my prayer and went to see him. After having my meal
with him I returned back to my house. It was closer to 11.30 PM and I was
bit tired. On my return leg I drove between 120 to 140 kmph to reach home
as fast as possible. This road is known as Fahaheel expressway. As the
Kuwait devotees know the road is dead straight, and it curves between 25th
and 26th KM distance. At this point, while I was driving the
car just opened my eye. Yes I was sleeping while I was driving at that
speed. I saw myself being just 2 seconds away from my death. Yes my car
was about to hit the concrete middle barrier and I just opened my eye.
My mouth uttered Oh! Swamiji and I noticed that my hand was turning the
steering wheel without my conscious. After coming back to the road properly,
I noticed that all the cars behind and by the side of me had slowed down
and no one was closer to me. So the observation of others was that I will
meet a serious accident but my Swamiji’s decision was to pull me out of
the accident. With this incident I felt that Swamiji is not only present
in my house but also travelling with me.
Next day morning around
11AM I called Swamiji in Dubai and told him that last night I had a problem.
Then he said of course, Saturn was supposed to take you away but god decided
to pull you back. I told him Swamiji only thing I know is that you were
there to take care of me. If he was not there, how does he know that I
had escaped an accident? He is every where and he could be with his devotees
every second when we need him.
Swamiji knew my only wish
was to attend my daughter’s age attaining ceremony. Since I was unable
to go to Canada on visit visa, processing of migration was necessary. Then
I requested him that my medical papers for Canadian immigration has not
come and will it happen soon. He said I have taken your responsibility
and a father like you will definitely attend the ceremony god will take
care about it. That re-assuring words, were enough for me.
What a show up the medical
papers were in my hand at 2PM. He knew about the whole process but did
not tell me. When I received the papers next thing what I wanted was when
I should do the medical. Since I had slight diabetic I was very worried
about it. The last thing what I did not want to do was to encounter problems
with my medical. So from 5PM onwards I was trying to reach Swamiji but
was not successful. Finally around 9PM I did my evening pooja and tried
reaching Swamiji once again. Still he was not allowing me to talk to him.
Then I prayed to him saying let me try you for the last time, if you do
not answer, I will start my fasting as if I will go for the test and tomorrow
morning allow me to talk to you. When I tried again failed to reach but
at that time one of the bulb started to flicker. Then I told Swamiji do
not do these things I know you are listening but allow me to talk to you.
Still he did not allow. After 15 minutes Mr. Venkatesh called me and asked
whether I am thinking of Swamiji. When I said yes, he said Swamiji just
spoke to me and said that you can go for the medical test tomorrow morning.
I told ok to Mr. Venkatesh and narrated to what happened between Swamiji
and me. As usual Mr. Venkatesh gave me his hearty laugh and told Swamiji
will show you more. I could not believe it. Did Swamiji tell me that I
do not have to talk to him to get a reply for my problem? Even if I think
of him and request a solution for my problem, he is there to pass the message
in any form.
Medical for Canadian
immigration on 11th May 00
Since, Swamiji asked me to do the medical test I wanted do it but the fear of my urine sample will show negative result set into my mind. When I checked up the sample at 7am the test colour changed and I was worried about it. I was in a dilemma that now Swamiji has asked me to go hence, I cannot call and get clarification on whether I should go. I checked the sample every 1 hour and all resulted in the colour changing. Final check was made at 11.15am and this time too the colour changed. I decided to go for the test because Swamiji had asked me to do so. With the courage in my mind that Swamiji will take care of this sample and prayed to him and went to the clinic. I reached the clinic at 12 noon and did all the tests requested and the final was the urine sample for the test. After taking the sample I checked the sample as usual Swamiji’s leela was there. COLOUR DID NOT CHANGE AT ALL. I thanked Swamiji for making my worry to vanish. When the doctor checked and said my urine is normal, I told him yes now it is normal. All the other test results too came before I left and when the doctor told me every test revealed I am in good health condition and he will send the report to the Embassy I was so relieved. If not for Swamiji’s miracle I do not think all the results would have come same day itself and cleared all my worries about the medical.
As Swamiji said he arrived
in Kuwait in the evening and I went with the others to the airport. After
receiving Swamiji, Amma and Archana we came to Mr. Venkatesh’s house and
had a pooja. He did a special blessing for me at that time, but my realisation
came only 2 days later. On 13th morning my wife called and said
our daughter attained age. I finished my Morning Prayer and called Mr.
Venkatesh’s house and to my surprise Swamiji was up very early and gave
me permission to see him in the morning. I just went and sat in front of
Swamiji for about 30 minutes and we did not talk anything. I asked permission
to leave because I have to go to office. He blessed me and said do not
worry for anything and I shall see you in the evening. After that all the
worries which were building up completely vanished. That is our lord’s
gift. Once he says leave it to me then he makes me to feel calm.
In the evening when I went
to see him he asked me when shall I come to your house and I became highly
worried. When I told Swamiji, you know my daughter’s case and with it can
you visit my house? For that he said your house I could visit at anytime,
anyway I shall plan and let you know.
Swamiji and amma
spent 18 May 00 in my house
On 17th as usual
Swamiji gave me permission to attend the pooja in one of the devotee’s
house. My car was running smoothly and suddenly, did not start. So I had
to take a taxi and go to see Swamiji. I went to Mr. Venkatesh’s house,
there a big drama unfolded. Swamiji asked me when he should come to my
house. As usual I told him you tell me and I shall receive you, I cannot
tell when you should come to my house. Then he was offering each day then
He said no and finally said how about tomorrow. I told him ok but I thought
you know my car problem, please resolve it to take you in my car. He said
I should come to your place for lunch. When I heard that I was shocked
thinking how can I cook for him? I told him that I do not know to cook
properly, so I should buy the food from outside. For that Amma said we
are not coming to your house to eat outside food, I want the food to be
cooked in your house. Then she said do not worry I shall send someone to
cook for you. Amma arranged Mrs. Usha and Mrs. Zarina to come to my house
and cook.
Later in the night Swamiji
and I went for the pooja. When Swamiji finished the pooja it was around
4AM and by the time I got dropped at home it was around 5AM. I had 1hour
sleep and got ready to hand over the car to the mechanic and go to office
at 8AM. After handing over the car to mechanic I decided that day I would
not go to office and instead clean up the house and arrange for Swami’s
visit. I asked my friend to arrange a car for me because I was not sure
that the mechanic would repair my car. Suddenly at 11.45am I changed my
mind of hiring the car and went into the shrine room and asked Swamiji,
“Do you want to come to my house in my car or hired car? Why did you stop
my car specially a day like this. Please get me my car by 12noon. Since
the mechanic did not call me to say my car is ready I called my friend
to say go ahead and confirm the car hire. For that he said why you do need
to hire a car, 5 minutes back your mechanic told me that car is ready.
I really could not believe sharp at 12 noon Swamiji got the car ready.
Immediately I went and took possession of the car. Then I brought Mrs Usha
and her family and Mrs. Zarina home. After 4 years my house was full with
children voice.
Swamiji came home and sang
few bhajans, there was totally different atmosphere prevailed. Since, the
cooking was going on, Swamiji asked me whether there are albums for him
to see. I showed the family pictures to him. He remembered one of my brother
who met Swamiji during ’98 Jayenthi day briefly for few minutes. I was
amazed with the way Swamiji could recall him in the numerous devotees.
Amma too joined and then requested Swamiji to bring my family back to the
house. Swamiji gave me a great smile and nodded his head to Amma. At that
time I could not understand him. All what he and Amma did that day indicated
to me that my family will be back in Kuwait. I was happy that day because
Swamiji had brought with him Mr.Venkatesh and family too. That was a great
day in my life and felt that as a family reunion. We spent few memorable
hours with selected devotees whom Swamiji arranged. Later all of us went
to another devotee’s house for the pooja.
Arranged my Visa
on 8th June 2000
Before he left Kuwait I
asked Swamiji could I book my flight to Toronto on 1st of June
being aware that I did not have the visa yet. For that he replied you could
even proceed after one week or 10 days later. I was so smart and I did
the booking for the 1st and on the 8th. I bought
the ticket for the 1st. Took the ticket to Swamiji and he blessed
with a smile. Whenever he smiles at me I feel that he tells me I am there,
you do not worry. It shows Nangal Sollath Thevai Illai Engal Kavalaikalai
Sollamale Theerthuduven Unthan Kuraikalai. (This means we do not have to
tell him our worries, He know to resolve those). 1st came and
smiled at me saying you were too smart. I became little bit worried. By
6th I became really nervous because till that time my landed
immigrant paper did not arrive. On 8th morning I was really
upset about the whole thing and prayed to Swamiji “you told me 1 week or
10 days later, that means I should get my visa on the 8th or
11th. You know very well that I want to attend my daughter’s
birthday on 11th. Please arrange my visa to come today. Otherwise
9th and 10th no mail will come and how could I reach
on the 11th to my daughter.” When I reached office requested
the office messenger, moment he picks the mail to let me know whether there
is any mail for me. After he left I prayed to Swamiji and continued my
work. Being Thursday it was ½ day work I was really worried. At
about 11 AM the messenger called me and said there is no letter for you
and I was very upset. What could I do to blame Swamiji for the mishap or
to continue to pray please arrange it faster? Of course I did the prayer.
Then I realised that I do not have another day’s booking so I called the
airlines to book another date. He gave me a shock by saying that if I do
not make it on the booked flight till 20th there are no seats
available. I cancelled the booking of 8th because it was evident
that I could not travel
Then I called the travel
agent to find whether I could take any flight to reach Toronto 1 day before
the ceremony. She told me all the airlines are full due to the summer schedule,
no way could she manage even one seat. I did not have any other option,
and was continued praying with heavy heart and said Swamiji why you did
not arrange the visa for me, please arrange the visa and flight booking.
At 1PM I went with my friend Eric to the canteen and had food with him.
When we returned back to my room on the way I walked into his room and
requested him to check whether I have any mail. He got bit irritated and
said already the messenger told there are no letters for you. Why you are
worried like this, please go and take some rest. Then he pulled the mailbag
and took out the mail and my eyes went to a specific envelope. I requested
him to check that envelope only. He was astonished because the mail was
addressed to me and it is from UK. Without any other word he apologised
and gave me the envelope. When I opened the envelope my hands were trembling.
One side I went to the moon and other side I felt being pushed into the
black hole. Happy because it was my landed immigrant forms and sad because
I cannot make into that day’s flight which already I had cancelled the
booking. Also, my office was closed for the weekend and no way could I
leave on that day even if I got the seat. As Swamiji said he gave me the
visa on the 8th with a reservation.
Arranged my ticket
confirmation
Till 4PM I completely forgot
my lord. When I called him, He was getting ready for the Thursday pooja.
I told him that I got the visa he blessed me, then I told him about the
non-availability of the seats. The only option I have is to go to New York
and to proceed by bus to Toronto. He said why do you want to go like that
and he told me TELL THE TRAVEL AGENT TO CHECK AGAIN. I told ok Swamiji
and left the office to visit the travel agent. When I went to the travel
office, agent was confused to see me and asked “now what do you want me
to do”. I simply told her “MY Swamiji told me tell the travel agent to
check again”. Then she asked me which date you want to fly. Since Saturday
morning only I could talk to my superior I told Saturday evening if there
is a flight I could go. Then she checked one flight in the evening and
the result is no seats available. So she checked British Airways which
was leaving Sunday early morning and automatically her hand covered her
mouth in disbelief. Yes, she said one seat is available in the flight of
Kuwait-London and one seat is available in the London-Toronto sector too.
I told her immediately confirm and issue me the ticket and cancel the previous
ticket because it was of different airline. I got the ticket and left that
place with such joy because as Swamiji said I could fly 10days after the
1st. Both his one week and 10days came right by exactly after
one week from 1st he gave the visa and 10days after the 1st
exactly on the 11th early morning I was flying. I was with my
daughter at 6PM to celebrate her birthday. My daughter was in different
world because it was so unbelievable that just like that from nowhere I
arrived in Canada. If not, for our Swamiji, who else could have given these
wonderful experiences?
“Unnai Allamalee Veru Deivam Illai Ini En Vaalvil Thuyar Illaiyae” the ultimate realisation of me came from this. As all forms of god come into my Swamiji's form and help me live my life happily. With Swamiji started to protect me, now I feel, where he keeps me to worry about my life? As he says leave the worry to me, you be happy. I leave my problem as well as success to Swamiji. The naked truth is without SWAMIJI, I cannot exist.
Vikraman Swamijikku Jai, Ennai Aalum Deivaththukku Jai, Swamiye Saranam.