Thing passed uneventfully there after and I was leading a very normal life pattern. Every time I meet HIM, HE used to say "you do not know of your capabilities, you can do wonders ". I used to wonder why HE says so but always respected his views.
I traveled the ups and downs of my life in which I was never very comfortable. Got married during May 1995 and by his blessing my wife delivered a son on 26th June1996 the period as told by SWAMIJI himself.
Till that time everything was excellent.
During August 1996 when she had taken the baby for a routine polio vaccination the doctor told her that the baby has got VSD (Ventricular Septic Defect) and that was enough to make her panic and I also had contacted SWAMIJI regarding this and HE had explained that neatly to me an said during the course of time it will be alright. May be this was enough for my wife to loose her mental balances.
Since she was at my in-laws place during that time hence went unnoticed
as everybody thought it is her personal views and she is little arrogant.
During October1996 it was came to light when she was at my mother's place
and she started becoming more violent, suspecting everybody over there.
As a husband I knew her better than anybody else and was really surprised
how a sweet, sober, sensitive kind of girl can become so violent. I made a bold decision by bringing her back to Madras as I had my strongest of faith on SWAMIJI.
People said it is only because of black magic.Even though I never discounted the belief, my strong faith on SWAMIJI kept those things at bay.
SWAMIJI used to tell me that she will be all right miraculously by the grace of ANJANEYA SWAMI himself and wanted to do my duty by taking her to doctors.
During October 1996 to March 1997 I had tried to give her the best of
the medication available. But to no use. The Psychiatrists made her like
a vegetable. By end of January 1997 the violent nature of her subdued but
the real tragedy started. I used to take her to almost all the doctors of repute available at Madras and Bangalore also very frequently I used to meet SWAMIJI whenever HE was available at MADRAS.
Every time HE used to give vibudi and say she will be quite alright and advised me not to worry.
For no reason she used to feel very very week, sleep (unconscious) for 24 to 36 hours at a stretch. Doctors were very confused and they used to change medicines.
One night she ran away from my home at Madras (Besant Nagar) to Madras Central Railway Station during early hours of the day. (She says around 3 and 3.30 in the morning).
Imagine a young female with gold ornaments and a hefty amount in her purse during that time of the night. And she had paid only 45 rupees towards fare to the auto rickshaw which is the normal fare during peak hour. Also paid from a bundle of notes.
She had came across a female who suspecting something wrong with her had asked the Police at the railway station to take of her.
I wake up around 6'O clock in the morning and before realizing that she is missing received a message in my pager to contact the railway police authorities regarding my wife. I brought her back in time.
When I want to dissect the incident I used to wonder, Who the Auto driver
was? Who was the lady at the railway station ,who took care of her? I always
wanted to convey my regards to them. But where are they? It was none other
divine intervention. When I told this to SWAMIJI he just smiled during that time.
After that she had attempted committing suicide several times but was helped at the last moment unconsciously. As if somebody was letting me know in time.
I have an enlarged photo of SWAMIJI at home looking at which I used to cry a lot at all the time mostly within myself. Suddenly I used to hear a very very sweet but commanding voice not to worry and everything will be alright.
I used to ask myself all the time "Why I am being punished for no fault of mine as consciously I had never hurt anybody since my consious days".
I also thought of committing suicide to run away from all these sufferings. But never knew what prevented me doing so.
Never her condition improved. During April 1996 it became worse as I had stopped all her way to commit suicide.
I was also being asked by some my very close doctors to seek divine
help. And if I do not mention their names then I am not doing justice for
their help. One is Dr.Aruna Ramakrishnan, consultant Gynecologist here
who is associated with us from the days of my marriage. And the other Dr. V.Meenakumari who practices at DUBAI in accupressure treatment. She also wanted me to go to Sri SIVA SANKAR BABA, who that time was staying at BESANT NAGAR.
Finally I said enough is enough.
I said to the SUPREME CONCIOUSNESS that it is HIS wish to bring her back to normalcy.
I met SWAMIJI and told that this is the end of my effort and I threw my hands up. He just smiled and said the same word "she is becoming alright don't worry".
I just smiled hopelessly witnessing thr cruel game of GOD.
But the miracle happened there after but not before the worse display.
I left her with my parents in Orissa so that care can be taken in a better way as far as diet was concerned. She was very week.
Just the day I am back again in Madras I got a call from them that she can not move below her waist (paralytic) and the doctor there wanted to talk to me before proceeding with the treatment.
I went there and saw the things. She was very much depressed and sad. I told her to try as SWAMIJI has promised to take care of her. Talked to her for ten minutes and asked her to go for a walk. It was nearly impossible for her but I asked her to try and she was able to become normal.
I requested my doctor there not to experiment with her but just prescribe the general tonics.
After that a series of dramas. One day She said she had lost her vision. I knew it was only HIS play to measure my Strength. I didn't show my seriousness towards it externally as it was supposed to affect my whole family. After sometime she said it is all right. Next day she was not able to open her eyes at all for 16 hours. I knew it is a part of game plan. Next She was not able to Open her eyes, not able to hear, not able to speak at one time for One full day. Even though I was showing no concern of mine outwardly, with in me I was only asking HIM why the test? Same day night I do not know why I started shouting at her for not co-operating and for my surprise she said now she can hear but that lasted for only ten minutes. Then I came to know that something with in her instructing her sensory organs to behave funnily. I started shouting at her for ten minutes and after that the history. She became quite alright, and gained back her health in just next 15 days.
Since then every day she is improving to tune of 100 times than the previous day. Initially I was proud to have a nice lady for my life partner but now she is uncountable times better than what she was initially.
If I will not describe it as one of the miracles of my life then what I should call this.
After that incident in my life my whole life is changed drastically. I am able to know who am I and what for this incarnation? And now my whole aim in my present incarnation is self realization. This is what I need now. And I know for this my beloved SWAMIJI will never let me down.
I also have lot many miracles in my life by the grace of SWAMIJI there after to explain but will do that in phases.
Only thing I must write now is " GOD IS ONE AND WE ARE HIS DEAREST CHILD
AND IN EVERY RESPECT WE HAVE HIS ATTRIBUTES. SO LET US RESPECT OUR VERY
EVOLUTION AS A MILESTONE FOR SELF-REALISATION AND MAY THE DIVINE SOUL OF
SWAMIJI GUIDE US TOWARDS ACHIEVEMENT OF THIS. SWAMIJI IS NOT ONLY A MESSANGER
OF SELF REALISATION BUT ALSO A VERY POWERFUL
MASTER WHO IS THERE FOR THE UPLIFTMENT OF THE WHOLE HUMAN SOUL. SURRENDER 100% PERCENT AND SEE THE BENEFIT.
WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS FROM THE SPIRITUAL WORLD IN HUMAN FORM TO EXPERIENCE THE ESSENCE OF LIFE HERE NOT MERE HUMAN BEINGS.
OUR SPIRITUAL WANTS ARE MORE THAN OUR MATERIAL WANTS. SO WAKE UP AND MOVE TOWARDS THAT WITH SWAMIJI'S ACTIVE PARTICIPATION.
I REMEMBER HIM SAYING ALWAYS "IF YOU TAKE ONE STEP FORWARD I WILL TAKE 100 STEPS TOWARDS YOU AND IF YOU ONE STEP BACKWARD I WILL TAKE 1000 STEPS AWAY FROM YOU".
LET HIS DIVINE BLESSING UPLIFT THE SICK HUMAN SOUL AND SPREAD HIS DIVINE
MESSAGE THOROUGH OUT.
JAI VIKRAMAN SWAMIJI
JAI HANUMAN SWAMIJI
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