Koti Namaskarams
to our dear Swamiji.
Words cannot express enough our love and
heartfelt gratitude for our dear Swamiji. Our very intention to write this
experience is His doing; we are merely His instruments…, instruments with plenty
of shortcomings. Any divinity that a reader witnesses in these experiences can
be due to His blessings alone, any shortcomings that you witness in our
description is due to our limitations.
We were first
mentioned about Swamiji by our friends-Sethu and Lekha. Although both of us
(Vidya and myself) came from pious families, neither of our families had a
Guru; this was therefore something new to us. We had just immigrated to Canada
in 2000 and I was desperately looking for a job. The economy was doing
averagely well but I was unable to find a suitable job. I recollect spending
several hours everyday looking and applying for jobs but remained unsuccessful
in finding one. There were several moments of despair. The invite to attend
Bhajans couldn’t have come at a more appropriate time. Attending the Friday
Bhajans gave me/us an inexplicable peace of mind.
During one of
the Bhajans, one of the devotees talked about a dream they had about Swamiji,
in the dream Swamiji had danced with one of his devotees. After the Bhajans,
when we (Vidya and I) were driving home I remember asking Vidya if any of us
(Vidya or I) were in the dream seen by that devotee; honestly I knew the answer
would be negative. Vidya very innocently mentioned this to the devotee in the next
Friday Bhajan session and all the devotees shared the joke for a small laughter
at my cost. That very night I had my first dream of Swamiji (mind you I hadn’t
even met Swamiji.., just seen him in photographs), I very vividly remember
Swamiji’s words in my dream even today. “In the beginning I used to wonder who
is this Krishnamurthy” (my last name)-while saying this Swamiji was smiling and
He said this with his characteristic sense of humor. “Now you are also my
bhakta, you are also my devotee”. This is how I first met Swamiji (in my
dreams) and we have never looked back after that.
I was told
that as Swamiji was being inundated with calls from devotees from all over the
world, He was unable to talk to everyone. I have been fortunate to be able talk
to Him in times when I badly needed some guidance. During one of the
conversations in 2002, I remember him mentioning to me in Tamil, “Ennam
padipuku vaayapu undu”, which means you will be studying further. I had just
applied for admission for Masters in Engineering and was eagerly awaiting
results. Within a week after this conversation, that too on a Sunday, I got a
reply confirming my admission for Masters. During the same conversation, He
also blessed Vidya’s saying she will make good advancements in her job.
Needless to mention, Vidya advanced very well in her job and this took care of
all the household expenses when I was studying. During my study, I would be
amazed at how I would score an A when I had doubts if I would even pass the
examination. One such instance was the “Modeling and simulation” course that
required me to be adept at computer programming.., I wasn’t. So in the final
exams I wasn’t able to even attempt the paper fully, I was almost convinced I
would fail the exam as I hadn’t even attempted 50% of the paper, and 50% is the
pass mark. I recollect having prayed to Swamiji to do some miracles so that I
could at least pass the exam.., in all honesty I didn’t expect to. And
something strange happened during the results.., I got an A! I later learnt
that the teacher had marked the paper on percentile basis-the highest in the
class being considered as 100%. Many may consider this a coincidence; to me
this was Swamiji’s miracle.
After a few
interactions, one day with someone, I was pretty much disturbed about not being
able to get even an interview call, leave aside getting a job. Swamiji, as
usual, read my mind. When Vidya called Swamiji, Swamiji asked for me (Suresh)
and spoke to me, “Canadale veliye pethi Bhayepedavei venda” which means do not
worry for a job in Canada. These were words coming from Lord Anjaneya itself
and were very soothing and reassuring.
Sometime
again in 2003, I had a dream in which Swamiji said “Unaku kunjum training
vaenum”, which means you need some training. Consequently in Jan 2004, through
people I didn’t even know properly, I got a job in a small research company.
The company offered me a one month contract. At that time I had a part time but
permanent call centre job which I had to resign from. Thinking that the new
opportunity was coming from Swamiji, I went ahead and resigned from the part
time job. That one month contract was extended to another month and then for
six months and later on for a year. I was later confirmed as a permanent
employee.
After two
years, somewhere in 2006, this company was thinking of sub-contracting me to a
bigger company. Two of us were shortlisted. My colleague went for an interview
in the morning and I was scheduled to go in the afternoon. My colleague was not
at all happy after the interview and was sure he wouldn’t be selected. Of the
two of us, honestly he was a much better candidate for the job. When he didn’t
do his interview well, I was pretty sure my interview would not be good. Much
to my surprise, due to Swamiji’s grace, I got selected for the job.., I was
least expecting it.
Sometime
again in 2003, I had a dream in which Swamiji referring to my job said “They
have been thinking since six months, they will finalise by May”.., Swamiji did
not mention the year.
In late 2006,
when I was working with this company on a contract, I learnt about a full-time
opportunity in this company I was currently working for. I had applied for the
job somewhere in the month of September/October 2006. I didn’t hear anything
from the company until November. In November I learnt that there were around 200
candidates being interviewed for the job. I was mentally prepared to restart
working in the old company. I didn’t think I would stand a chance among 200
candidates, that too for just one position. With the grace of Swamiji, I was
interviewed in the end of November once, end of December again and January once
again. I was offered a permanent job in this big company in end Feb/early March
2007, exactly six months after my job application! My job is a gift from
Swamiji and I have never doubted that ever. As an icing on the pudding, Swamiji
always asks on the phone-How is your job Suresh.., are you happy!
We had been
trying to have a child for quite sometime; it was almost seven years since our
marriage. I had somewhat resigned to destiny. One day I had a dream in which
Swamiji said “Unaku Konzadei definiteaa undu”, which means you will definitely
have a child. I wanted Swamiji to tell this to me directly over the telephone
just to quell some doubt in my mind that this was not wishful thinking. When we
talked to Swamiji next, Swamiji repeated exactly the same words which is you
will definitely have a child. Our eldest daughter Harini was born on January 11
2008, due to His grace and blessings.
After having
known and felt so close to Swamiji for eight years, we finally met Him with our
daughter Harini. Swamiji was waiting for us outside the ashram. I couldn’t hold
my tears when I first saw Swamiji and out of emotion, I said to Swamiji “You
kept me waiting for eight years to meet you Swamiji” Swamiji just smiled saying
that there is a time when everything has to happen. Swamiji blessed us with
another child sometime soon saying “You will have one more child”. Accordingly
in 2009 our second daughter Shivani was born. Both our children are invaluable
gifts from Swamiji.
Once, while I
was praying, I thought about Swamiji saying in my mind “Swamiji where are you,
I feel like hearing your voice”. That night Swamiji appeared in my dream. In
the dream I was resting my head on Swamiji’s lap, and Swamiji was gently
stroking my head. What a beautiful dream! What more could a devotee ask for!!!
Swamiji, we
owe all what we have to you, all the good things we see; we hear and
appreciate, to You. Thank you for everything Swamiji.
Knowing You has been the best thing that has ever
happened to us.
Vidya and Suresh
Krishnamurthy
Canada